
One of the hardest things that I have had to do in my life is to look at myself directly in the mirror. By not hiding, I have been able to see with greater clarity those areas where I am not living up to my Divine potential.
I have been craving time out in my daily life for the practise of meditation, and boy or boy have I learnt a lot about myself as a result of this. The biggest lesson that I have learnt is that you can not hide from yourself, if you spend time going inward in quiet reflection. I think many of us, for I know that I have, spend a lot of our time just trying keep our minds and bodies busy in the hopes of keeping ourselves distracted. The payoff is that we are then living life disconnected to ourselves and the Divine.
What are we afraid of, what was I afraid of? Maybe having a deep relationship with the Divine calls for a level of intimacy and vulnerability that many of us are completely uncomfortable with. One needs to have a level of faith in the realization that the Divine never leaves the relationship that the Divine has with each one of us. I know that this may sound obvious to many but for me to know this at a deep level, the level that reaches beyond the mind and that takes root in the heart, has required a deeper healing and a deeper understanding of the intentions of God. Once I realized that the intent behind all that is the Divine is to bring me closer to knowing and seeing the Divine in myself and others, my fear of trusting God with my life seems to have lost some of its grip, and this I am thankful for.
Namaste